How You Doin’ Blondie?


Go to him now, he calls you, you can’t refuse
October 23, 2007, 12:58 am
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I want him. Badly. I want his lips on mine. I want his hands up my skirt. I want to feel him get hard through his jeans. I need it.

Very rarely do I actually pursue what I want. I let things happen to me. I let men choose me. I let relationships develop that I know won’t amount to much.

Well I’m done.

I’m done scheduling my day around hoping to catch a fleeting glimpse of him. I’m done with becoming incredibly depressed if he doesn’t wave to me when he drives by. I want a to get to know him better. I want a romantic relationship to develop between us. I want a sexual relationship to develop between us.

I’ve decided to just go for it. I’m not sure exactly what I’m going to do, but I’m going to do something. I’ve never made the first move before, and I’m scared as hell. But I’m more scared of standing on this street forever, waiting for the other guy to draw.

Dr. J is encouraging me. He thinks that maybe by taking the initiative for once, I’ll break the chain of destructive relationships.  He says the fact that I feel something different than I’ve ever felt before could be my subconscious telling me it’s time to end some of my emotional struggles…he must be almost done with his car payments or something.